This is the place I’m going to work through some of my current phases. I’m in what Barbara Sher calls an “adolescence” right now… working on changing my life in positive ways. And it’s working. It really is.

By the way, March was the 30th anniversary of Wishcraft.  It’s a wonderful book.  And it’s now got it’s own website, and is available for free as pdfs! It’s funny. I took one of her free seminars in Eugene what… 14-15 years ago? What I remember most of all was that my dream wasn’t all that big – I wanted to make my living writing and making art, not working for someone else. During the brainstorming session, while I could come up with ideas for the woman who wanted to raise white tigers, and every one else could too, NOT ONE PERSON had ANY ideas for what I could do to get to mine. Not one. Talk about depressing. But I’ve been using her planning techniques for almost everything I do/did since then. It works. And I realized that I’m 1/2 way to that dream of mine: it’s just the “for myself” part that’s still out there waiting for me. And I’m getting all the butterflies and the tied up knots she talks about every time I take another step towards it.

So. I’m going to try not to whine, but what I WILL do is show you some of the techniques and resources that I’m using to get to where I want to be, show you how they are working (or not) and we can go from there.

I’m going to try to post regularly, because this idea won’t work without that kind of structure.

Me. You. Shall we start this journey?

I was worried in 6th grade when the only answer I had was “a ballerina,” even knowing then that my body was going to fight me the entire way, and probalby win.

My real problem was something I finally articulated about 15 years ago in Eugene. I want to do everything – almost. I’ve never wanted to go ump out of a plane. Where my mother said “if God had wanted me to fly he would have given me wings,” I said, “if God had wanted me to skydive he wouldn’t have given me a perfectly good airplane.” But that’s a digression. (Prepare for those. I ramble!)

Last year I read Barbara Sher’s Refuse to Choose. I still don’t fit. Don’t get me wrong – this woman is still one of my idols – what else can you do but admire a welfare mother who pulled herself up and out and devotes her career to helping other people do the same? I’ve read WishCraft, heard her speak, tried to use it – couldn’t narrow my focus, couldn’t do it, read I Could do Anything if Only I Knew what it Was, and realized that I answered “yes” to almost everything in the questionnaires, and reallized that I do want the world — and the moon, and the stars, too. when it comes to life I want to taste most of it. I’m in awe of people who have a purpose other than some vague “I want to help people,” that drives them utterly.

I need to leave for work, though. More later.