This is the place I’m going to work through some of my current phases. I’m in what Barbara Sher calls an “adolescence” right now… working on changing my life in positive ways. And it’s working. It really is.

By the way, March was the 30th anniversary of Wishcraft.  It’s a wonderful book.  And it’s now got it’s own website, and is available for free as pdfs! It’s funny. I took one of her free seminars in Eugene what… 14-15 years ago? What I remember most of all was that my dream wasn’t all that big – I wanted to make my living writing and making art, not working for someone else. During the brainstorming session, while I could come up with ideas for the woman who wanted to raise white tigers, and every one else could too, NOT ONE PERSON had ANY ideas for what I could do to get to mine. Not one. Talk about depressing. But I’ve been using her planning techniques for almost everything I do/did since then. It works. And I realized that I’m 1/2 way to that dream of mine: it’s just the “for myself” part that’s still out there waiting for me. And I’m getting all the butterflies and the tied up knots she talks about every time I take another step towards it.

So. I’m going to try not to whine, but what I WILL do is show you some of the techniques and resources that I’m using to get to where I want to be, show you how they are working (or not) and we can go from there.

I’m going to try to post regularly, because this idea won’t work without that kind of structure.

Me. You. Shall we start this journey?

I first envisioned this blog as a simple move from LiveJournal. I am seeing now in only a few posts, that it is going to be so much more — and so different.

In many ways, it’s because I feel more at home here – I am able to control my environment more. I’m able to feel more at home: more myself. And that is something I am working on these days – being at home with myself and comfortable in my own, much healthier than it was – skin.

I’m also trying to practice defining what I want, something I mentioned on Stitching with a Shimmy back in January in a post called “On Writing Things Down.” So let me try to define that better.

• I want to feel comfortable in my ability to make needed decisions, regardless of other people’s “Stuff”.
• I want my reaction to other people’s “Stuff” to be more “wow, that must be really hard right now” rather than having  their stuff set of my stuff and me ending up blubbering in a corner somewhere.
• I want to be comfortable enough in my own skin to let myself be wherever I happen to be in MY bodily and emotional health journey at any given moment.

I’m now envisioning this space as a place to learn more about myself as well as about other things. I’m sure that it won’t be static. Nothing ever is. I’ve got ideas. I’m moving right now in directions I never envisioned, and I wouldn’t be surprised at all if this blog does the same thing.

Come back soon!